Apparently, I’m back from my hiatus on this blog. (If you would like to know about my time in Cambodia and my re-entry into America, check out commissioned61.wordpress.com) I’m still trying to figure out what it means to be home with a desire to go back to Cambodia. I’m trying to understand what missions means for my life. I’m trying to gather if I’m hiding pieces of myself by having separate blogs.
I’ve spent a great deal of the last 2 1/2 months contemplating…everything.
The only thing that I was certain of was the waiting. Waiting until I can go back to college in the fall…Waiting to graduate…waiting for God to make his call clear…Waiting to find community…Waiting, waiting, waiting.
At first it seemed never ending, but now it has never been so much fun. It’s an adventure.
Sure, I still have alot of unanswered questions, but through these questions I have learned firsthand the peace that comes through surrender. In my uncertainty I have the opportunity to dream with God about the future and invite him into my not-so-concrete plans. I actually have free time to pray and worship and intercede. I can rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. I give him the time to break my heart for what breaks his and prepare my heart for what’s next. I have been so preoccupied with who he is, I haven’t even had the time to stress about the steadily approaching future.
I’ve found joy in waiting…
And ultimately joy in him,
And his Sovereignty,
And his glory.
-A World Changer