As I sit on this plane, a bit restless, and full of exhaustion, I am contemplating the bitter ending of this season.
Right now, I am pressing into God and what he has for me. Just me.
After three months of constantly pursuing others, calling them to higher, handling budget and finance, scheduling and logistics, it has come to an end.
But throughout these three months, I’ve realized a few things:
If the Lord puts you somewhere, it is for a reason. Give your all where you are until he releases you from that. It might look like months of raking, or working through moments of hurt and frustration. It might involve feelings of inadequacy, forgiveness, and healing. But it will be worth it to say at the end, “Lord I was faithful. It might not have been much, but it was all I had to give.”
Don’t ever settle.
If there is more, pursue that. If it’s a deeper relationship, vulnerability, or truth, don’t let yourself become confounded by the idea that it won’t be worth it. Just as vulnerability leads to vulnerability, stagnation leads to stagnation. There’s always more that he has waiting for us if we would only seek after it.
You can only love people as deeply as they let you.
This was probably the hardest truth I had to realize because I want to love people so deeply. You can only be fully loved if you are fully known; the more you allow yourself to be known, the more you allow yourself to be loved as you are and not as you appear to be. However, you can’t pry anyone’s heart open. Giving your heart to someone must be a gift, freely given.
Be willing to risk it.
Always always always put the call of Christ above whatever you’re so tightly holding on to. If it be a friendship, speak the truth in love, knowing that it is more important for Christ to be exalted in that person than for you to be friends. If you don’t want to make yourself uncomfortable, you will never love truthfully. Risk loving others, even when faced with rejection. Love hard. Love relentlessly, because if it all falls to pieces, there is still one who extravagantly holds it all together.
Just because it was hard, doesn’t mean it wasn’t good.
It’s absolutely okay to walk out of a season and say, “wow that sucked.” When Christ calls us to pick up our cross it calls for great endurance and great pain…but it leads to greater joy. Maybe it was heavy. Maybe there were moments where I you almost gave up, but that certainly doesn’t mean that God wasn’t in the midst of it. He didn’t abandon you. He never will.
Say yes to the Lord when he prompts, especially when it’s easier to say no. He uses hearts that are willing. In the end it will be for your good and his glory.
Believe that God is who he says he is.
…And ultimately that he’ll do what he said he will do. Let him be God. Trust that he is more faithful to you than you are to him. Understand that his ways are not our ways and his thoughts are not our thoughts. Know that you are loved so deeply by him, especially when you don’t feel it. Know that his grace is sufficient and his strength is made perfect in your weakness.
Philippians 4:8—Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.
Hallelujah and Amen.
-A World Changer