That’s my word for the year, or rather, my most important word for the year.
JOURNEY. embark. enjoy. c o m m u n e. They all manifest a sense of being and a place of belonging.
On January 1st of 2017, I followed in the footsteps of a sweet friend and catalogued the past year, listing the places where God showed his faithfulness. And I wondered how many of those moments I missed because I was worried about the next thing–job, college graduation, approval, Nicaragua, home, new job. The list goes on and on.
But what about today?
What blessings and beauty is the Lord releasing today that I may abide in? What sweet communion is he calling me to partake in?
Friends, it is not only the impending uncertainty that threatens to avert our eyes from our Savior; It is the bitter taste of the forlorn past as well.
Towards the end of the year I realized just how much my heart still ached from past hurts. Even more than that, I realized how I was orienting my life around that hurt instead of God’s goodness. We must learn to let go. Allow the Spirit of God to reveal the places of chaos that need the truth of scripture to invite the peace of God to dwell.
So now I am here. Here in this place where I’m waiting on news, where I’m seeking change, where I am accepting more of my flaws and understanding more of my strengths. I am letting go of the unfruitful old and building the new. I am planning cautiously and enjoying fully.
And I still miss the mark. Daily.
Some days are harder than others when I want to be at this unspecified destination, “there,” right now. Some days I want to halt the process. Some days my “journey to embark” occurs in my sweats while watching Netflix. But I am making a conscious effort to make each day an opportunity to experience what the Lord has for me.
I invite you to have a little grace for yourself. Breathe in.
- Be present.
- Be honest.
- Be yourself.
- Be known.
- Be loved.
Just be in the midst of Him who loves you and gave his life for you.
Matthew 6:25-26, 33 ESV
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?…But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
-A World Changer
(stay tuned in 2017 for some deeper theological thoughts with more biblical meat)